looking for my relatives from embhali Maritzburg

i was adopted when i was 6 years old with my little brother who is 4 years younger than me ,we live with a Memela family the parents who adopted us are old now as I am in tertiary I am staying with their son and his wife and kids. Life is not good for me here, i want my real family i know both my parents mom and dad died of HIV my dad surname ngowakwa Mthethwa and my Mom Dlomo and that was the surname we were using before we got adopted, i you could trace my real relatives before i kill myself I am begging, i did not choose that my parents die when i was still young and i never asked them to adopt me….sengibekezele kwanele manje