The hurt i dont ever wish my kids endure

My name is Thumeka Sindisiwe Bekwa, aged 33. A mother to 3 angels. I am married.
I never met my father and that hurts me to the core everyday. His name is Joseph Sibisi and i was told he hails from KwaDumisa in Umzinto, Durban.
My mother’s name is Eunice Sibongile Mhlongo. My mother told me they met in Prospecton, where my mother was working in a coffee shop and my father was working at Motorvia and he was staying at KK hostel in Claremont, Durban.
I didn’t really feel the pain of not having a father because my aunt and her husband brought me up from 3months so i grew up believing that he was my father so i had a normal childhood but that was until 2000 when i was doing grade 10 and now staying with my biological mother.
I learned that the person whom i thought was my father was not and i was angry and confused didnt get the answers to my questions at time.
The pain i felt than is the same i still feel today. I am really empty, alone and most of the feel like my life does not have direction. I have children and my mom is the only person i have now i worry what will happen to my kids should the unfortunate happen. And i really would love to meet my father’s side of the family.
Life is very tough and seem to be unfair when u dont have anyone to turn to.
I dont resent him because i dont know what happened between him and mama all i want is to find him and get to know him and finally have someone i can call father.

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